Invisible Reality

I hate feeling this way.....my mind is in a warp...imagining the unreal, hoping for the unseen, wanting you to feel the way i do....im too much of a punk to actually say what i feel....you gave me the opportunity...i try to ignore my feelings, but it seems like each day they grow stronger....i dont want this to happen....im soooo fragile and all i can think about is your smile, the way you smell, the way when you think sommin is hilarious you roll your eyes to the sky...but to the right first...your lil phrases...the cute way you speak...or when you try to study you bite your lip, and tap your pencil to wateva song you heard last...i dont wanna fall...not ready at all...i dont really think i kno you....i just want a chance to be let in...im knockin on the door of your heart, tuggin, pullin, && all the while im creatin && fallin for the ideology of you...i watch you when you play...puttin myself in a role thats so unfamiliar, but quite comfortable...rememberin the first song we heard together...now im hooked...i blast it on repeat wishin i could relive that moment again...all i want you to do is protect my heart...but you dont kno you have it...all these other dudes out here would get dropped...all i want is you....im out the closet to my friends...they kno im diggin you...feelin like an usher song...shorty got it badd for you B....but u got a misconception bout me....my fault...cuz forreal, forreal, i want you however i can get you...but you my weakness bay. you run across my mind all the time....i hope to catch a glimse of you on my daily walks...i daydream bout all the PoSSibIliTiEs...but the worst part is you kno i exist...and wholetime im invisible.