Never is.

As a teenager, Love is the most important thing. Ignoring for a second the spiritual aspect, and focusing on the natural of what I feel and what I am used to, living in the world, everyone wants to find love. Our favorite music artists sing of finding love, and losing it; a huge taboo, but I dream of finding love and never losing it. I know that I am promised love, and will recieve it at the appointed time, but this requires patience; patience is a virtue and also something I have very little of. Especially when you live in this fast paced world where everything is not only instant, but about instant gratification, patience is very difficult to not only have, but maintain. But I digress. I have so many thoughts, and emotions inside of me that I have trouble expressing. I need someone to recognize me inside. For those unseen signals, when I am hurting and do not want to say, when I want you and you can tell by the way I bite my lip and bat my eyes, when I'm thinking really hard and you can tell by the way my eyebrow is, or when I'm frustrated and you rub the tension away in my shoulders. How you can tell when I don't feel beautiful and you hold me with your arms around my waist and look in my eyes and hold my face, kiss me softly and smile. No words exchanged, just a look and your love for me overwhelms me, revalidates me, makes me know how much you care. All of this and more I look for as a teenager, but know cannot happen simply because of the nature of teenagers. Although I am blessed with wisdom and knowledge beyond my years, sometimes it feels like a burden because I feel that others in my peer group, who are older than me should at the minimum know, understand, and acquise to this standard of living. But my hope, or rather demand, falls on deaf ears because it is not met, and never is.